I need me to be me again

I need laughter

I need sunshine

I need warm hugs…not yours

I need me to be me again

I need my friends, no matter how much I push

I need love..not yours

I need comfort

I need the cold wind smacking my face at 6am on a run

I need a pet, preferably a puppy but 

My mom wouldn’t let that slide

I need me to be me again. 

I’ve spent so much energy into this “Thing”, 

I’ve lost me

I’ve lost me interests, I’ve lost what’s really

Important to me. 

You used to be my all

No one else mattered but you, not even I

Mattered to myself. But that’s okay because 

I’m going to be me again, 

Without you.