I am all who you say I am

 

I completed high school because you said I had determination.

You say us Bailey’s are strong, so I used that to fight through my brother’s death.

 

Stubborn!

 

Yes, that’s how I ended up paying for my schooling.

 

Irresponsible,

 

because I went through five phones within four years.

 

Ungrateful,

 

because I didn’t appreciate ugly dookie brown boots.

 

Something you should’ve called me was stupid.

 

Stupid for believing, “I got you” and

having faith in the person I thought you could be.

Thinking you could be the man form

of the lady who would stand in front of a bus for me.

Someone who’ll pick up the phone and listen

Someone who’ll appreciate my goofiness,

and won’t care if I wear a scarf on my head.

Oh wait I forgot I wear scarves because I’m lazy

 

I’m a follower too,

 

for wanting my hair to flourish in its natural state.

 

“nappy-headed”

because my hair is no longer straight

I no longer care

 

This determined lady will finish college,

Standing up for myself.

 

If that means fighting you too.

 

My stubbornness will help me ignore your phone calls

 

But I’ll say

 

I was too irresponsible to charge it.

 

And when it all boils down I’ll be ungrateful because I cut off

the one person who was capable of helping me stand on my feet.

 

Yet,

 

I find myself stupidly feeling sorry for the one

who makes my life hell.

Then again they always say

people do stupid thing for love.